however, after visiting a number of blog sites, i found myself inspired to update my own blog site and write about something that has been preoccupying me for the past few months...no it's not plants vs. zombies! it's about the two lines that will forever change my husband and i's lives...so here it goes --
since mark & i have been married, we've been really dreaming of having our own baby! yes, unsual as it may sound for some [or most?] who would probably want to enjoy themselves first before having an additional family member, mark & i didn't mind welcoming and enjoying our lives together with a little mark or little cesca tagging along.
the first two years of our marriage were not that kind to us though. we've had our share of crying and disappointment everytime we'd see signs of me getting pregnant only to find just one line on the pregnancy test kit. i cannot recall how many one-lined PT kits we've seen in the past two years. we even came to the point when we couldn't be bothered to check anymore because we did not want to be disappointed again and again. we thought if it's really meant to be, it will just happen! thus, we just decided to spend our time enjoying ourselves, travelling with family and friends and buying almost all the stuff that we needs plus the ones we just wanted.
fast forward to 2010, when we decided to leave for australia to see our options and for mark to pursue his dream of taking up culinary arts. mark left january 2010 and i soon followed in june of the same year. we were so excited for the change that is happening in our marriage -- the independence, all the learnings and adventure -- they were priceless! though we'd miss our family and our old lives back in manila, we felt overwhelmed with all the opportunities that came our way in australia. as we rediscovered ourselves, our passion and longing for a child of our own was also rekindled. thus we can say we did try harder to have a baby, but this time, without much expectations.
a couple months passed and every month i would still get my period right on the time when i expect it to come...not until last september when i first experienced being delayed for more than 3 days. i've been monitoring my period, and so far the longest time i was delayed was 3 days, nothing more than that. i told mark about what's happening but at the same time, reminded him not to get his hopes high for there were many factors that may have caused the change in my cycle -- the weather [it was still winter that time...], my adjustment to my new life overseas, my new work, the kinds of food we eat, etc. etc. etc.
so i just waited, and waited, and waited for the period to came. it was not until i was a week delayed when i decided to check. i remember mark even left early from work that day just to be able to buy the PT kit [since most of the shops here in Au close t 5pm...yes, so early!:( ]
it was the 24th of september, friday and we both had work. when we got home, mark was so excited to see the results but i was unsure if i should do the test that night or wait til the morning [since they say it is more advisable to do it in the morning] i decided to surf the net first to take my mind of doing the test while mark fell asleep waiting for me to actually do the test. around 10 in the evening, i decided to go for it.
i did not exactly know how i would feel when i stepped in the bathroom to do what i was supposed to do. i was feeling light headed at the same time a bit confused with how to use the PT kit since it was not the same as the ones we usually use back in the philippines. i was so keen in following the instructions since i did not want to ruin the test because of my carelessness. so there i sit waiting for the result...i was nervously looking at the stick as it absorbed the urine...there it is...one line | ...just like what i always see before...but wait...is that a faint second line i see | | ?!? i looked at the leaflet that came with the PT kit just to confirm if what i am seeing is true [you think you know but wait til you're actually there seeing it...hahaha!] after reading the leaflet i looked at the stick again and the faint second line was not that faint anymore. i could not believe my eyes when i saw the two lines on the stick!!! the first thing i did was pray and thank God for this miracle...for this great blessing. i was filled with excitement, gratitude and yes, i'd have to admit, i was also a bit nervous.
back then, i used to think of creative ways on how to tell mark we're having a baby...but all those plans did not matter, i simply ran into our room, woke him up and showed him the stick with two lines. he did not immediately understood what it meant because i just stood there beside our bed smiling at him. i think it took about 2 minutes before he realized that yes, we're pregnant!
both teary-eyed, we hugged and took photos of the kit and ourselves [of course!] to document another happiest day of our lives...and we know with these two lines, our lives will never be the same again | | .
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